Note for Artistic Director

So as of July 19, 20 at Grandma’s I finally decided to take my writing to a whole new level. And dedicated myself to writing a daily prompt each day for a therapy session to not only help grow my writing but to also cope with my depression and become a better writer and person.

I know I haven’t always been the best person I can be. Or the go to friend that everyone can count on. I know I may have mentally hurt some people with my bad attitude. And I am sorry for that. But I know sorry won’t cut it. So I am slowly trying to get my life back on track and to become a better person than the girl I was yesterday.

I have many things I need to work on and improve. Of course my negativity is one of them. But let’s talk about that later. I’m getting off topic now.

I actually thought I wouldn’t like writing the therapy writing sessions but I absolutely love writing them. And they have helped me with my other writing. And made me a stronger writer. And they have also helped me become calmer and a bit more happier. But I am still in the process of self improvement. And being a better Aunt as well.

Here is one of my daily therapy session prompts. One I am willing to share with the rest of the world. And maybe from time to time will share more. But keep in mind my therapy writing sessions are personal, fun and last but not least honest. And I may get negative feedback or criticism but that is okay. Because this is my writing, my thoughts on the world and beyond. But at the end of the day the only thing that matters is weather I have made a difference or need improvement. And weather I did okay today or can improve tomorrow.

I write honesty and I believe that being honest is the key to greater things in life. I grew up always believing that if you are honest the more people will respect you and love you for it. But I also know that being honest sometimes can get you killed, hurt or beat up. But the real folks who believe in honesty will always win. No matter how brutal the honesty is. I would rather hear you being honest with me even if it means hurting me emotionally rather than hearing you flat out lie to me and get my hopes up and lead me astray.

Here is day five-teen of my therapy writing. August 3, 20. This was for my 35 Therapeutic Journal Prompts For Anxiety/Depression challenge.

The question was. Who inspires you? What qualities do you look for in a person who does?

Vitek inspires me because he has this aura surrounding him that is good. He is the type of person I would want to be friends with if I could. He has the heart of a warrior. Soul of an angel and his heart is as big as the sun and the moon. I mean in my eyes this guy is perfect.

The reason I chose to write Vitek for this prompt is because ever since I discovered the HCA I have been in awe of it and have always loved the Conservatory even though I hadn’t been volunteering with the HCA in 2012 when I discovered it.

I started volunteering with the HCA in 2015 but I was afraid of what was behind the doors of the Conservatory. I didn’t know if they would accept me. Care about me like I do for them. I love the HCA and wouldn’t change anything about it. But I probably would have volunteered sooner.

I am rambling now. Back to Vitek. So anyway he is kind, caring, accepting, non-judgmental, committed to his love of the HCA and the artistic kids who attend classes there. I have never met anyone quite like Vitek. You would think he would be mean like everyone else but he’s not. And have attitude about not caring about certain things. But he seems to be the type of person to give everyone and everything a chance. Doesn’t matter how dumb it sounds to someone else he will give it a go or at least give it some thought before saying no.

And even though I am not the prettiest girl in the world or in his Conservatory he still accepted me and has been a positive role model in my life. And I one day would like to be like him. He is a gentle soul. He is kind of like a ninja I wouldn’t want to get on his bad side or have him yell at me. That wouldn’t be good that’s for sure.

And I don’t believe he would leave anybody behind. Regardless of who they are. How much income they have or what they look like. Or even their talents and skills.

Everyone has a skill and a talent they can use to make this world a better place for not only them but for the entire world. And I believe that is what Vitek sees. He sees the good in people. Did I mention he also has a beautiful smile?

I’m sure he knows that I care about him. He is my Hero and he knows this. Let’s just say if Katie my career counselor hadn’t pushed me in a good way towards the doors of the Conservatory and helped me to stop being afraid I don’t know where I would be right now. Maybe dead I don’t know.

But Vitek accepted me into a place of positive artistic love and he helped show me that it is okay to have talents. Even if you only have one and it doesn’t matter how much money you have because money doesn’t matter it’s your heart and how much good you can do with it that matters.

To end this note I know Vitek may or may not see this note and that is okay. But I just want him to know that I care about him very much. And wish him the best of luck with all his future plans for the artistic kids and the Conservatory.

One day I hope to be as kind, caring, creative, ambitious, loving and as brave as him.